Today the starting pistol was fired for NaNoWriMo. I wouldn’t say my start was a flyer, alas it wasn’t too bad either. 1700 words in on what will be a 50,000 word journey is quite an intimidating thought. I feel like I am standing in front of Everest. I am scared but also exhilarated. I am the master of my fate for the next month. Come the end of November, if I fail I shall only have myself to blame. I shall try to keep posting on my blog, obviously I shan’t have so much time, at the least I shall keep adding progress reports.
It’s a strange irony that the 1st of November is not only the day I have started my novel, but it is also the day of the dead here in Poland. As death is a key theme in this project, and death is absolutely everywhere, it’s hard to actually think of much else. I intend on writing a more detailed post about this peculiar Polish holiday later in the week. What I will say for now is that it the inspiration is working for me.
One of the many wonders of writing for me is when you find yourself typing a word that you seldom use. So much so that when you say the word aloud it makes you smile. Todays word was ‘skittish’. Is it me or does it sound a little like a nationality? Maybe it’s used to describe people from St Kitts? Anyway, enough of my nonsense, I have to get ready to join the real world.
Tuesday marks the deadline I set when I last submitted my novel. So far I have sent it to two literary agencies without reply. I don’t know if it’s better not to hear, or if it would be better to receive a rejection. Any which way the news certainly isn’t positive so I am already turning my attention to my next target.
It’s inevitable that I am asking myself a lot of questions, and that some part of is quietly concerned that perhaps my novel isn’t good enough and I am just a ridiculous dreamer. On a positive note I find myself a lot less anxious than I was a month ago. I believe I have come to terms with the fact that this process if going to be lengthy.
I am much more anxious for November 1st to come around so I can get started on my next project. I have a rough idea that I am toying with in my head. I am eager to get started. So eager that I wouldn’t be surprised if one of these days my brain explodes. I am quietly confident that I can produce a novel in 30 days. The only thing which worries me is that 50,000 words may well be a little on the short side.
The November project is keeping my mind occupied. I am no longer concerning myself with the future. About the only thing which has changed is that recently I have started wondering exactly how strong my submissions are. If my cover letters are too stiff and formal. If they actually say anything about me at all. I have reached the conclusion that I would rather fail honestly, therefore I shall try a different approach with my next submission. Wish me luck.